So much has changed.
If someone told me a year ago on January 30th that I would be where I am right now, I would find it really hard to believe that person. A year goes by way too fast. Anything could happen within that year. And a lot did.
Over the course of a year, I fell deeply in love with someone. I felt the happiest I’ve ever been with another person. It’s fascinating how one person could mean so much to another. It’s a beautiful, human mystery of life. I also finished my first year of college. I came to A&M to be in this program called Visualization and I can honestly say it is one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I met interesting people, learned so much about how art and technology go hand in hand. I dove into this world I never knew existed. Little did I know Christmas came and summer flew right on by.Before I know it, sophomore year arrived.
I had a bad semester. I really did. I didn’t care about my classes, I didn’t care to involve myself in extracurriculars, I didn’t take care of my body, I stopped playing guitar, and I didn’t believe in myself. Time heals everything though, as they say. One day, I woke up and didn’t feel unhappy. I felt refreshed and inspired. All it takes is time.
Now, I LOVE my classes. I put in extra effort so I make sure I’m at the top. I feel prettier and in shape. I work out at least 4 times a week. Playing basketball again has really helped me connect to my true self. I dove into my extracurriculars and now I’m the Activities chair for Delta Zeta. Someone went out of their way to nominate me and people chose me. I felt important and respected. I applied for Fish Camp and I really hope it goes well! I’ve met more people in the last few months then I did my whole freshman year of college. I honestly feel like I can do it all and really seize the opportunities I have in my life. I’m blessed.
Yes, I still love him. It doesn’t necessarily mean we are meant to be together right now. Who knows? You can’t go through life worrying about these things. If there’s one thing I learned in my (almost!) 20 years of living is that fate exists.
